I spend a lot of time in my own head. Always worrying about what might happen next.
It’s a constant loop, and it’s exhausting. It takes up so much space inside.
The worst part is trying to fight it. When I’d try to force myself not to think about things. Well, that’s just more thinking, isn’t it?
Always digging the hole deeper and deeper until I’m just… stuck.
So, I tried looking at other people.
You know the ones. The people who seem fine. The ones who look like nothing bothers them. They laugh easily. They seem so free and normal.
I wanted to be like them.
I would watch them and try to copy that feeling. I’d try to use that idea to fight my own mind.
But then I thought…
What if those “normal” people are struggling as much as I am? What if they’re only better at hiding it?
And then, I felt it. We’re all probably fighting the same kind of battle. They just have their own version of it. All part of being human, you know?
That one thought led to another. While I’m looking at someone else, thinking they have it all together. Someone might be looking at me thinking the exact same thing.
Even on days when I feel like a total mess inside.
We’re all trying to seem normal, aren’t we? All the same, in our own little ways.
It’s a strange kind of comfort.
Maybe this moment is the only “normal” any of us ever really get.
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